Another Rising Day

i woke up today thinking that i would have a good day, unfortunalty i didn't, i had a voice mail on my phone from my boss at another store telling me that a friend of ours that we had trained to do work with us had gotton killed, although i know im sad i have to keep on doing what i do, i cannot let one misshap fall between me and my duties as a person, it seems as though the person was in the wrong place at the wrong time and had gotton stabbed several times, im going to call his mother and girlfriend and see how they are doing and all, i know its hard to loose a loved one and i know it is painful to think of what might be going through there heads now. so i will give them my prayers and hopes that they will carry on with there lives as though he would want them too....

Another Oldie (Feelings)

Yall know how feeling feel when you get them hurt? Well let me be the first to tell you , that shit aint kewl, I like this guy, he write on the blogger, hell he was the one who inspired me to write on here, im always reading abotu his days and we text and talk on the phone and yet he still doesnt realize the true meaning of somone liking him like i do. i mean this person is a true individual and i know he i can tell just by the way that he writes and talks and so forth, i dont know how to make him understand that when you LIKE someone you like then enough to be with them. and YES i have told this individual what i like and how i like him and why, but still NO responce, should i just give up or keep on truckin? please let me know the answer to this?

Some Rather Bad News

THis Is the repost from my other page i though i would move it to this one


Alot of you know that on January 5 2007 i had open heart surgery, well yesterday i went to the heart Dr. for my 6 month check up and got some rather disturbing news, seem that my breathing is o.k. but my sternum hasnt fully healed yet and it is causeing some GOD awefull pain in my chest, my doc listened as i took deep breaths to finally tell me that he was going to have to schedule an X-ray to determine wether or not he would have to reopen my chest and fix the wires that hold my chest together, talk about a non happy camper.. well more of an update when i get one for you to know, i have to go to the dr on 20juno8 so wish me luck guys, im hopeing it wont me as bad as i think right about now

Some Rather Bad News

THis Is the repost from my other page i though i would move it to this one


Alot of you know that on January 5 2007 i had open heart surgery, well yesterday i went to the heart Dr. for my 6 month check up and got some rather disturbing news, seem that my breathing is o.k. but my sternum hasnt fully healed yet and it is causeing some GOD awefull pain in my chest, my doc listened as i took deep breaths to finally tell me that he was going to have to schedule an X-ray to determine wether or not he would have to reopen my chest and fix the wires that hold my chest together, talk about a non happy camper.. well more of an update when i get one for you to know, i have to go to the dr on 20juno8 so wish me luck guys, im hopeing it wont me as bad as i think right about now

The Best Day Of My Life

Today, when I awoke, I suddenly realized that this is the best day of my life, ever.There were times when I wondered if I would make it to today; but I did!

And because I did I'm going to celebrate!

Today, I'm going to celebrate what an unbelievable life I have had so far: the accomplishments, the many blessings, and, yes, even the hardships because they have served to make me stronger.;I will go through this day with my head held high and a happy heart.

I will marvel at God's seemingly simple gifts; the morning dew, the sun, the clouds, the trees, the flowers, the birds. Today, none of these miraculous creations will escape my notice.

Today, I will share my excitement for life with other people. I'll make someone smile.

I'll go out of my way to perform an unexpected act of kindness for someone I don't even know. Today, I'll give a sincere compliment to someone who seems down.I'll tell a child how special he is, and I'll tell someone I love just how deeply I care for them and how much they mean to me.

Today is the day I quit worrying about what I don't have and start being grateful for all the wonderful things God has already given me. I'll remember that to worry is just a waste of time because my faith in God and his Divine Plan ensures everything will be just fine.

And tonight, before I go to bed, I'll go outside and raise my eyes to the heavens. I will stand in awe at the beauty of the stars and the moon, and I will praise God for these magnificent treasures. As the day ends and I lay my head down on my pillow, I will thank the Almighty for the best day of my life. And I will sleep the sleep of a contented child, excited with expectation because I know tomorrow is going to be the best day of my life, ever

Monday, February 18, 2008

2:52 AM

Yesterday I let something go that I thought I would never do. Ive alwas been told that if you love something so much that you have to let it go and that’s what I did, I know if was for the best and I know deep down that one day he will remember who I am and what we had but I just have to let him gather that information on his own. Its not something that I appreciate doing to him but I know that it was in my best interest to let things go and try to remember the good times that we had and forget the bad.

The question

This Is A Question For My Friends!!!! In my eyes I'm not to easiest person to get to know. I'm what most would call a true friend. I'm not going to lie to you just to keep your feelings intact. That's just one of my best qualitites.

My Admiration!!

You've who I desire,

You light my fire,

With every kiss,

You take me higher,

Feelin' like your lovin',

I just cannot resist,

The softness making me hold on,

There's no one, I'd rather,

Share my good lovin' with,

But I promised,

I'd wait till I'm ready for this...

One day we'll make love,

Passion unheard of,

I'll be your man,

If I have my way,

We will see heaven,

Lovin' together,

We won't stop ever,

If I have my way....

I'm so well.

And it's strange to be

I'm torn by misdirection,

You're personify my admiration.

What is it that attracts me to a man?

Why does it hurt when I get hurt;

I guess only time will tell when I actually know what the deals are with a guy.

How do I tell someone that ive liked them for the longest time yet there straight as an arrow?

I like his brother to.. Yet he knows that much about me, he knows my every move, he's like a brother to me and I couldn’t never ever tell him that I like him in a way that doesn’t seem right I could loose the friendship that I have with him