The Original Being for this Blog to was people to undergo and type of knowingness of me. Now it seems as though i just cant get enough cause of people keep reading about me. And there is more to come
Sunday, April 27, 2008
Sarcasm
Saturday, April 26, 2008
Thoughts From Within
Monday, April 21, 2008
To Sum It all Up
Some of your Gay Men that play a roll (what ever you call it) need to step back and realize that you are infact A MAN. I mean i get this all the time Am i a TOP or a Bottom, Shit it goes with out saying, with me, i go either way, which ever my body feels like doing, i know that alot of guys take the dick or they give the dick, i myself do both, end of story! I was talking with a friend of mine today lets call him (BO), Bo is a very good looking young man with a lot of potential, great personality, good looks, smart ass mouth though, but he is an all around REAL guy. when we were talking he happen to mention about the way that his man and him fought all the time and when he would step out of line he would get slapped, i was like hell no. you got to be Joking, right?
I was in an abusive relationship once before where my friend hit me and slammed me into things and just plain out beat the cold hell out of me when i did things that he didn't like, i woke up one morning and said to myself, do i really want to end up in the ER every time this guy decides that i dont do something right? i said no, so one morning when i was up before he was i decided i would make some breakfast,( i know its sounds like a madea thing and its not i didnt hit him with no pan of grits or no frying pan, i did worse) i made the usual, pancakes, eggs, toast w/butter now, and some oj just for shits and giggles, well he got on this kick that his eggs were not done, i was like they are done, and just eat them, he proceeded to throw them in my face, of course i got mad and said why the hell did you do that, he just looked at me and said well are you going to clean that up? i was like hell no i didnt make that damn mess, you did so get on yo hands and knees and clean it up. i swear i got balls like no other that time and he just looked at me and came rushing at me when he did i slapped the shit out if him with the hot cakes and eggs, and my eggs i love them runny so it made a big ass mess on the floor. i just knew that he was going to beat my ass for sure, but he didn't i think the shock kinda flew over him like WHOA< what the hell just happened type deal. i walked away from him and after that he would always treat me with some type of respect, he never hit me again, no raised his fist at me like he used to. i guess the lesson learned here is, TO SUM IT ALL UP, when you get tired of being a door mat you will get up and dust yourself off and carry forward, but dont lay down again or it will happen all over again..........
Saturday, April 19, 2008
Another Rising Day
Another Oldie (Feelings)
Some Rather Bad News
Alot of you know that on January 5 2007 i had open heart surgery, well yesterday i went to the heart Dr. for my 6 month check up and got some rather disturbing news, seem that my breathing is o.k. but my sternum hasnt fully healed yet and it is causeing some GOD awefull pain in my chest, my doc listened as i took deep breaths to finally tell me that he was going to have to schedule an X-ray to determine wether or not he would have to reopen my chest and fix the wires that hold my chest together, talk about a non happy camper.. well more of an update when i get one for you to know, i have to go to the dr on 20juno8 so wish me luck guys, im hopeing it wont me as bad as i think right about now
Some Rather Bad News
Alot of you know that on January 5 2007 i had open heart surgery, well yesterday i went to the heart Dr. for my 6 month check up and got some rather disturbing news, seem that my breathing is o.k. but my sternum hasnt fully healed yet and it is causeing some GOD awefull pain in my chest, my doc listened as i took deep breaths to finally tell me that he was going to have to schedule an X-ray to determine wether or not he would have to reopen my chest and fix the wires that hold my chest together, talk about a non happy camper.. well more of an update when i get one for you to know, i have to go to the dr on 20juno8 so wish me luck guys, im hopeing it wont me as bad as i think right about now
The Best Day Of My Life
Today, when I awoke, I suddenly realized that this is the best day of my life, ever.There were times when I wondered if I would make it to today; but I did!
And because I did I'm going to celebrate!
Today, I'm going to celebrate what an unbelievable life I have had so far: the accomplishments, the many blessings, and, yes, even the hardships because they have served to make me stronger.;I will go through this day with my head held high and a happy heart.
I will marvel at God's seemingly simple gifts; the morning dew, the sun, the clouds, the trees, the flowers, the birds. Today, none of these miraculous creations will escape my notice.
Today, I will share my excitement for life with other people. I'll make someone smile.
I'll go out of my way to perform an unexpected act of kindness for someone I don't even know. Today, I'll give a sincere compliment to someone who seems down.I'll tell a child how special he is, and I'll tell someone I love just how deeply I care for them and how much they mean to me.
Today is the day I quit worrying about what I don't have and start being grateful for all the wonderful things God has already given me. I'll remember that to worry is just a waste of time because my faith in God and his Divine Plan ensures everything will be just fine.
And tonight, before I go to bed, I'll go outside and raise my eyes to the heavens. I will stand in awe at the beauty of the stars and the moon, and I will praise God for these magnificent treasures. As the day ends and I lay my head down on my pillow, I will thank the Almighty for the best day of my life. And I will sleep the sleep of a contented child, excited with expectation because I know tomorrow is going to be the best day of my life, ever
Monday, February 18, 2008
2:52 AM
Yesterday I let something go that I thought I would never do. Ive alwas been told that if you love something so much that you have to let it go and that’s what I did, I know if was for the best and I know deep down that one day he will remember who I am and what we had but I just have to let him gather that information on his own. Its not something that I appreciate doing to him but I know that it was in my best interest to let things go and try to remember the good times that we had and forget the bad.
The question
This Is A Question For My Friends!!!! In my eyes I'm not to easiest person to get to know. I'm what most would call a true friend. I'm not going to lie to you just to keep your feelings intact. That's just one of my best qualitites.
My Admiration!!
You've who I desire,
You light my fire,
With every kiss,
You take me higher,
Feelin' like your lovin',
I just cannot resist,
The softness making me hold on,
There's no one, I'd rather,
Share my good lovin' with,
But I promised,
I'd wait till I'm ready for this...
One day we'll make love,
Passion unheard of,
I'll be your man,
If I have my way,
We will see heaven,
Lovin' together,
We won't stop ever,
If I have my way....
I'm so well.
And it's strange to be
I'm torn by misdirection,
You're personify my admiration.
What is it that attracts me to a man?
Why does it hurt when I get hurt;
I guess only time will tell when I actually know what the deals are with a guy.
How do I tell someone that ive liked them for the longest time yet there straight as an arrow?
I like his brother to.. Yet he knows that much about me, he knows my every move, he's like a brother to me and I couldn’t never ever tell him that I like him in a way that doesn’t seem right I could loose the friendship that I have with him
Friday, April 18, 2008

I want a guy Who move hair away from my eyes and the kiss me, Some one who would sing at random moments. Who would let me sleep holding them in their arms. A boy who would get mad at some one if they called me ugly or who was mean to me I want some one who would call me 3 times a day if I went away Who would throw stuffed animals at me when I say dumb things Kiss me a million times Some one who would make fun of me just to make me laugh Most of all i want a guy who would be my best friend & never break my heart! (DONT BE SHY EVEN IF ITS TO SAY HI!)