Sleepy Days

im sitting up early in the morning, trying to get some sleep but cannot get any sleep, im going to try and get some sleep now

Sarcasm

Here is a really good question for all you people, If be sarcastic all the time is painful to the mind, then why do people do it 24-7?

Thoughts From Within

As I look out on today i see things that amaze me most defiantly. Sometimes its like Men in general don't get the picture of how to do thing around the house, around with people or in just all places.....i really dont understand what it is that a guy wants all the time, i guess it comes with being with the person all the time or being around the person 24-7..

To Sum It all Up

Ok, we all know that living the GAY life is a Bitch, RIGHT? Right! Well let me start off this subject with a BANG!
Some of your Gay Men that play a roll (what ever you call it) need to step back and realize that you are infact A MAN. I mean i get this all the time Am i a TOP or a Bottom, Shit it goes with out saying, with me, i go either way, which ever my body feels like doing, i know that alot of guys take the dick or they give the dick, i myself do both, end of story! I was talking with a friend of mine today lets call him (BO), Bo is a very good looking young man with a lot of potential, great personality, good looks, smart ass mouth though, but he is an all around REAL guy. when we were talking he happen to mention about the way that his man and him fought all the time and when he would step out of line he would get slapped, i was like hell no. you got to be Joking, right?

I was in an abusive relationship once before where my friend hit me and slammed me into things and just plain out beat the cold hell out of me when i did things that he didn't like, i woke up one morning and said to myself, do i really want to end up in the ER every time this guy decides that i dont do something right? i said no, so one morning when i was up before he was i decided i would make some breakfast,( i know its sounds like a madea thing and its not i didnt hit him with no pan of grits or no frying pan, i did worse) i made the usual, pancakes, eggs, toast w/butter now, and some oj just for shits and giggles, well he got on this kick that his eggs were not done, i was like they are done, and just eat them, he proceeded to throw them in my face, of course i got mad and said why the hell did you do that, he just looked at me and said well are you going to clean that up? i was like hell no i didnt make that damn mess, you did so get on yo hands and knees and clean it up. i swear i got balls like no other that time and he just looked at me and came rushing at me when he did i slapped the shit out if him with the hot cakes and eggs, and my eggs i love them runny so it made a big ass mess on the floor. i just knew that he was going to beat my ass for sure, but he didn't i think the shock kinda flew over him like WHOA< what the hell just happened type deal. i walked away from him and after that he would always treat me with some type of respect, he never hit me again, no raised his fist at me like he used to. i guess the lesson learned here is, TO SUM IT ALL UP, when you get tired of being a door mat you will get up and dust yourself off and carry forward, but dont lay down again or it will happen all over again..........

Another Rising Day

i woke up today thinking that i would have a good day, unfortunalty i didn't, i had a voice mail on my phone from my boss at another store telling me that a friend of ours that we had trained to do work with us had gotton killed, although i know im sad i have to keep on doing what i do, i cannot let one misshap fall between me and my duties as a person, it seems as though the person was in the wrong place at the wrong time and had gotton stabbed several times, im going to call his mother and girlfriend and see how they are doing and all, i know its hard to loose a loved one and i know it is painful to think of what might be going through there heads now. so i will give them my prayers and hopes that they will carry on with there lives as though he would want them too....

Another Oldie (Feelings)

Yall know how feeling feel when you get them hurt? Well let me be the first to tell you , that shit aint kewl, I like this guy, he write on the blogger, hell he was the one who inspired me to write on here, im always reading abotu his days and we text and talk on the phone and yet he still doesnt realize the true meaning of somone liking him like i do. i mean this person is a true individual and i know he i can tell just by the way that he writes and talks and so forth, i dont know how to make him understand that when you LIKE someone you like then enough to be with them. and YES i have told this individual what i like and how i like him and why, but still NO responce, should i just give up or keep on truckin? please let me know the answer to this?

Some Rather Bad News

THis Is the repost from my other page i though i would move it to this one


Alot of you know that on January 5 2007 i had open heart surgery, well yesterday i went to the heart Dr. for my 6 month check up and got some rather disturbing news, seem that my breathing is o.k. but my sternum hasnt fully healed yet and it is causeing some GOD awefull pain in my chest, my doc listened as i took deep breaths to finally tell me that he was going to have to schedule an X-ray to determine wether or not he would have to reopen my chest and fix the wires that hold my chest together, talk about a non happy camper.. well more of an update when i get one for you to know, i have to go to the dr on 20juno8 so wish me luck guys, im hopeing it wont me as bad as i think right about now